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man oh man, im not writing this note to anyone, i just wanted to write, i love it. lol. i love him ♥ but he doesnt love me back. lyfe and love stinks. :( i relly love him tho. cant wait to see him again. nd hold his body close to me, smell the scent of his calogne and feel his breathe on my kneck,and rub my hands down his body, just kknowing that thats hes there for me. but then, the image fades, he slipped away.. out of my hands like soft sand in through my fingers, gone..picked up by the wind and drifting in circles around and around just chasing itself. but the wind dies back down, and im able to pick it back up and hold it a little while longer before the wind takes flight and it leaves me again. i know the sand doesnt belong in my hands, it belongs out there with the wind, but for now, ill keep it safe, till then, till the wind comes and it has to leave me again..i shouldnt be able to hold it while i am here, but for some odd reason its seems like its letting me but i thnk that its almost time to let go, just one last feel..but no, if i do, i kno that i just wont be able to let go...so i must release it back to the wind. i open my hands, at first its just gentle, not strong enough to take it, then it picks up, and with that, the sand is lost. unable to retrieve it, i think that its bout time that i walk away, and just go back to the bench, at leats i kno it cant be taken away by the wind. never.